kuliah..... gimana nieh?

keeesssssssssssseeeeeeeeeeeeelllllllllllllllllll...... mama gak ngizinin aku kuliah di luar kota, mana jurusannya mama ku minta masuk IKIP z. lah mana bakat aque jadi guru, boro-boro ngajar belajar za malesnya nauzhubillah gak ketoolongan aku nie. yah gak gitu-gitu amat sih low masalah belajar tapi kan , yah intinya q gak begitu berminat jadi guru.

UUUUUUUUUAAAAAAAAAAAAANNNNNNNNNNN

ku dah nyerah tadi pas ngerjain soal uan bahasa indonesia td, bisnya puanjang banget tu soal padahal cuma wacana doank tapi bujuuuuuuuu gak ketolongann panjangnya tu paragraf yang jadi ini soalnya padahal jawabannya tu singkat-singkat aza tapi busyet dah capek capek tuh mata njelimet baca soalnya doank... ku bener-bener cuapek pas ngerjain soal tadi tapi pengawasnya aneh senyum-senyum mulu ke aku ( bukan ge-er loh ) tapi yah gara-gara isma sih nanya jawaban ke aku jadionya aku diliatin ter\us ma pengawasnya yang ndutsz tu tapi cakep juga loh... ^_^

huahhh

gimana nihh... nilai metikku ancur abiezzz.... parahparahparah ga da yang bisa bantu aku juga nih, mana nilai waktu ujian TDS ma pra UAN ga da nyang beres tapi nyang pra uan kemaren aku sih lulus dengan nilai yang memuaskan tapi yang TDS tuh nilai bisa bikin aku jadi gilaaaaaaaaaaaaa.... mesen kamar di RSJ berapa yah bisznya ku dah ga tahan lagi ma situasi di rumahku, dirumah kayaknya gak pernah ada yang namanya "sedetikpun ketenangan" ribuuuuuuuuuuuuttt mulu...........

dreamer...

I'm a dreamer... Hidden power... My world is made of dreams, love, and worries. But there are still things lying hidden that I can't even imagine. Facing the sky, like all the different trees, I'm gazing right at you. I want to find my dream... I want to make it come true... There is nothing that I can't overcome if I only believe. Just like singing, just like miracles, "feelings" can change everything! Without a doubt... Without a doubt... It's almost surprising! I'm a dreamer... Hidden power... A world yet unseen... No matter what awaits me there, even if it's not the ideal, I won't be afraid. The birds travel on the wind on a journey from today to tomorrow. I want to tell you... I want to shout it... I'm but one entity in this world. But like a prayer, like a star, even with a small light, someday, I want to be stronger and stronger. There are limitless possibilities, right here in my grasp. ( It's gonna be your world.) I want to find my dream... I want to make it come true... There is nothing that I can't overcome, if I only believe. Just like singing, just like miracles, "feelings" can change everything! Without a doubt... Without a doubt... It's almost surprising!

honey

Alone, I lean on the windowsill, my cheek resting on my palm starting at the endless rain I've been alone all day I wonder what you're doing right now... The memories I collect are precious treasures. Making my heart wrench. Ah.. Isn't it strange? Just remembering makes me affectionate. Just like a honey spreading out sweetly in warm milk. My heart dissolves your smile is the finest honey. Looking up in the sky at Orion's Ruby. In my very own planetarium welcome back again tonight. When we're together, I can't gaze at the stars. Now let's zoom up 100 thousand times and draw in the sky. Ah.. Isn't it wonderful? It's like you're always by my side. On nights when I can only curl up and cry sad tears you give me courage. Your smile is the finest honey. I spread my wings wide and alight from heaven, like the star-filled sky. I can be strong! Your smile is my very own honey....

huff...

tadi pagi my mom tiba-tiba z mRh G tAu SbaBnYa. ntah napa tapi ku G sKa dengan caranya. q benar-benar G ngerti apa yang my mom ingin. q paling G suka kalo q di bentak or dimarahin tanpa alasan yang jelas. menurut q, aQ ni orang yang selalu di salahkan ma keluargaku, aku emang sadar if i'm not legal their child. walau gitu q juga punya hak buat melakkukan sesuatu, tadi waktu di masjid q tanya ma dessy susanti "apa dia sering dimarahin ma ibunya?" dia jawab "Ga, biasanya yang dimarahin adenya z." terus dia bilang "menurut ibunya itu kalo udah besar G perlu dimarahin lagi, coz kalo dimarahin bakal ngelunjak atauo melawan" jujur q iri loh ma ibunya dessy tu, pengen banget q punya ortu yang peduli. aku tau selama ni mama udah ngebesarin aku sendiri tapi aku dah bukan anak kecil lagi yang mesti selalu...(entah apa namannya, aku bingung tuk bilangnya).

hari ni 9 January 2009

hai met taon baru 2009 yah (sori lama ru lama ru posting)... lama gak ketemu plends, gimana kabarnya? Harri ini aku enek rasanya ngeliat orang atu itu nanya-nanya mulu, udah tau nasinya ada di dandang eh masih nanya juga kayak ga ngerti juga... hai ni ku bilangin taon ini q harus berubah tapi impian que buat jadi ambassador kayaknya ga bisa tercapai deh, my mam kayaknya ga ngijinin deh kalo aku kuliah di bandung and juga itu dipengaruhi ma orang sok sibuk itu yang ngomong macem-macem ke mama. Sebenarnya impianku cuma satu pengen jadi Ambassador tapi hal itu yah mustahil buat ku yang ga dapat dukungan baik secara mental, materi, maupun jasmani.. ku gak tau harus kayak apa tuk mawujudkan impianku itu tapi mau gimana lagi itu hanya tinggal harapan yang melayang-layang bersama angan-angan kosong belaka ...